18/06
今朝の夢、ホームシックにかかる夢でした。現実と夢の間を彷徨いながら、頭がすっきりしないまま目が覚めました。一瞬ここが日本なんだかアデレードなんだか分からなくなり、数秒後に「あ、アデレードだ。」と気がつきました。これが人生2度目の海外生活、でも今回は”ここで暮らす”という意味はとても大きいです。自分が年をとった分だけ親も年をとり、色々と考えるようになりました。両親も登場した今日の夢、切ない気持ちを引きづりながらメールなどチェックしていたら、Twittierにて写真家Phillip ToledanoのDays with My Fatherという写真集に出会いました。とにかく素晴らしいの一言。胸があつくなり、心が揺さぶられ、目元に浮かぶ涙を感じ。記憶障害を持つ年老いた98歳の父親の日々を息子はカメラのフィルターを通して見つめ、父親はその記憶を失っていくけれど写真という存在の中に父親の”生きた証”が残されていくのです。彼の写真を見ながら、両親と過ごす時間について考え始める私。私はここから何ができるだろうか。Days with My Fatherが心に刻まれた今、次に両親と電話で話す時、日本で会った時、もっとその時間を大事に想える自分がそこにいると思う。このポラは去年の一時帰国の時に家の前で撮りました。
My dream this morning was about being homesick. My mind was wondering around between dream and reality, then I woke up with dizziness. I couldn’t find the answer if this was Adelaide or Japan straight away. It took me seconds to realise it was Adelaide. Adelaide is my 2nd overseas place to live in my life, but the meaning of “live” is huge this time. I’m getting older and so are my parents. I think about things more and more. My parents were in my today’s dream as well. I was checking emails while I was still holding tender sadness after that dream, then I found Photographer Pillip Toledano’s photo journal, Days with My Father accidentally on Twitter. The photographs are extraordinarily. I was deeply moved , filled with emotions and felt tears in my eyes. The son captured his aged 98-year old dad who had memory loss through the camera filter, he knew his dad would not remember those moments but the dad’s life would always be in all the photographs he took, the beautiful proof that his dad was alive. Looking at his photos brought me to think about my days with my parents. What can I do for them from here. Days with My Father has left me a great impression, so the next time I talk to them on the phone or I see them in Japan, I’ll find myself to appreciate the time to spend with them more. The polaroid was taken when I was in Japan last September.
17/06
仕事探しを始めています。今のカフェの仕事は大好きなのですが、将来的な貯蓄などを考えた末に決めました。ランチタイムだけの仕事だけでは厳しいのが現状なのです。事務職に就けるよう色々な派遣会社に登録し始めたところです。まだどこからも連絡がなく、この先のストレス生活を考えると不安がどっと押し寄せてくるのが正直なところ。はあ・・・。ただ、このアデレードでどこまでやれるか、やってみないとわからないっ!という希望を持ちつつ、がんばれるところまでがんばってみたいと思っています。
I’ve just started shigotosagashi (job hunting in Japanese). I love my current cafe job, but I’ve had to make my decision to save up more for the future. Working for only lunch time isn’t quite enough. I’ve been sending my resumes out to recruitment agencies, which haven’t responded yet. It really makes me worry to think about when I can find one and being under stress, but I want to see my capabilities here in Adelaide and don’t want to give up. You’ll never know unless you try!
07/06
雑誌Eight:48が届きました。カバーのイラストから分かるように、私の大好きなテイストが満載です。新聞紙スタイルなところがまた良し。電車で経済新聞とかを小難しげな顔をしながら読んでいる人達に紛れてひとりこんな素敵なデザイン新聞を読んでいる人がいたら面白いな、なんて想像します。中でもmillergoodmanの特集が特に気に入っています。彼らの木製のおもちゃは大人でも欲しくなる作品で、ShapeMakerなんて見た瞬間に恋に落ちたような感覚。こういうデザイン&アート性の高いおもちゃは子供の右脳的感性をすくすくと成長させるんだろうな。
Eight:48 has arrived in the house. There’re many things I like in this magazine, which you can tell from the lovely cover illustration. Their newspaper format makes it more interesting, too. I imagine this funny situation: one person is reading this awesome design newspaper surrounded by people who are reading complicated ones like a financial paper, with complicated looks on the train. The ace article is definitely millergoodman for me. Their wooden toys are fantastic, which attract not only kids but also adults like us. When I first saw their ShapeMaker, I was easily in love with it. I’m sure toys like that which are beautifully designed and have got a great taste of art will improve children’s right brain sense so well.
28/05
新しいカメラを買ってしまいました! ニコンのD3000がアマゾンで破格値で売っていて、これを逃したら私は絶対に後悔するっと思ったのでお買い上げです。持っている一眼はフィルムカメラの為、毎回のフィルム現像代を考えると現像貧乏になってしまうし、この先のことを考えるとやっぱりデジタル一眼が欲しいと常日頃から思っていたのであります。なのでこのお買い物には大満足! 銀行の残高は寂しげだけど、でもこれから思う存分撮れると思えばね。
I have bought a new camera! Amazon was selling Nikon’s D3000 at an incredible price and I knew I’d regret not taking the chance. My SLR camera is a film one, so it costs a lot to develop each time and it’s easy to be broke. I’ve always thought about getting a new DSLR for my future photography life. I’m very happy about my D3000 decision and can’t wait to have it in my hands. I know my bank account doesn’t look great, but I’ll be able to take pictures without worrying about anything, which counts the most!
最近はiPhoneでも雰囲気のある写真が撮れるようなアプリがあって、これも私にとってはビックリな事件(!?)でした。Hipstamaticというアプリでトイカメラな写真が簡単に撮れます。お手軽な時代になったものです。でもアナログな心も忘れずに。
You can take nice shots with iPhone camera these days. I was surprised when I first played around them. Hipstamatic brings you a great toy camera experience on your iPhone, which is cool. Things are getting easier and easier…, but don’t lose your analog spirit!
